Multimodal Project By: adam bricha

My project For my multimodal project I chose to write a song about Walter’s feelings specifically that of which he displays in the hospital when he meets with bryan on pages 278 and 279 which I believe to be representative of his true feelings while being imprisoned on death row and also my personal experience and feelings for when I was suffering with depression and anxiety within the early years of high school.

Lyrics Why are there bars that separate me from the world I've done no wrong but i’ve been wronged My mind is shaken every night i’m alone dreaming of that place I had once called home Days turn to months months turn to years time's flying by and i'm still stuck here When you come i can smile try and play it off likes it’s ok but inside i’m afraid inside’ i'm afraid Almost paralyzed there must be something wrong with my brain life just ain't quite the same no it ain't quite the same It's like yellow mama is calling for my name I can’t escape this ill fate ain’t that a shame Get me out of here There must be something before it’s too late It’s too late

First section “Why are there bars that separate me from the world” In the first section of this song the bars are supposed to represent the physical barrier that separate Walter from the rest of the world as well as the feeling of fear that I had while trying to communicate and form relationships with other people.

Second section “I've done no wrong but i’ve been so wronged” Second section this part of this song is because Walter never really killed anyone but he’s been punished like he has been. And too me is because I didn’t feel like I deserved my anxiety.

Third section “My mind is shaken every night i’m alone dreaming of that place I had once called my home” The third section I got more from the description of Ralph’s time in prison but I still felt like it also holds true for Walter and every prisoner experience in the book where they just want to go home on pages 56 57 and 63. To me this part is representative of how I felt when I would be alone at night wishing things to go back to a much simpler time like before my anxiety problems started

Fourth section “ days turn to months months turn to years time's flying by and im still stuck here” The fourth section I got from page 220 and page 63 when Walter admits that he’s been afraid for the last six years and hasn’t recognized how much time he’s actually spent in prison and how he expected to get out of prison much earlier “he had been convinced that he was going home back in February. And for me I felt like this line was really representative of how I felt when I believed that my anxiety would go away quickly but ended up staying with me for a three years.

Fifth section “When you come i can smile try and play it off likes it’s ok but inside i’m afraid inside’ i'm afraid” The fourth section I got from page 220 and page 63 when Walter admits that he’s been afraid for the last six years and hasn’t recognized how much time he’s actually spent in prison and how he expected to get out of prison much earlier “he had been convinced that he was going home back in February. And for me I felt like this line was really representative of how I felt when I believed that my anxiety would go away quickly but ended up staying with me for a three years

Sixth section “Almost paralyzed there must be something wrong with my brain life just ain't quite the same no it ain't quite the same” The sixth section is about how Walter's life after prison continued to be not so great. With the town that he loves hating him Minnie not being sure about getting back together and then the physical pain he goes through from his tree cutting accident and his mental problems. And For me this section it also talks about how life isn’t particularly as good as it was before.

Seventh section “it's like yellow mama is calling for my name I can't escape this ill fate ain't that a shame” The seventh section of this song shows how Walter feels again at the end of the prison section where he says (bottom of page 278) “I tried, I tried, I tried. but they just won’t let me be” which I feel as if is supposed to show us as readers that even though Walter has been proven innocent and freed from the prison which has held him hostage for six years that his traumatic experiences still keeps him in a way trapped in the prison and that he can’t seem to get away from them. It’s also another line that represents how I felt that my anxiety would haunt me for the rest of my life.

My personal experience So the story that I wanted to connect with too Walter was that of my depression and anxiety through my early years of high school. The anxiety I had made it very difficult for me to approach people and make any friends. The anxiety was brought on by a incident that happened towards the end of middle school and mid-way through my first year of high school It started with me losing the first group of friends for doing the right thing and pulling attention too one of my friends that had been bullying another student very harshly for no particular reason. All my other friends at the time thought it was wrong that he was bullying him and that something should be done but no one did except for me and when I than became an outcast of the group. The second incident is when I was trying hard to find new friends and fell in with a bad group of people who later caused me to be labeled at my school for hanging out with them and also caused the event which would then lead to me being unable to approach and to speak new people.

Reflection I chose this story because like Walter I felt wronged for the events in life that happened to me and because of how is traumatic experienced followed him for the rest of his life while mine happened to stay with me for a long time after the event of which has happened and still creates problems for me when trying to be intimate with other people. I would say that the thing I learned while reading this book is to be grateful for the people that were there for me like Bryan was for Walter (my grandma was for me) and that I should’ve tried harder to talk to my grandma about my feelings.

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