Rainbowtide‘s Remembrance... July 2001 The story scrolls like a diashow and the pages advance automatically when using powerpoint. On the website click the > or < (slides 1 – 62) with your mouse. To discontinue, hit the Esc key July 2001 Copyrights reserved I am 

Freedom ...but ... How ?

1 My birth... I am coming

Experience with violence! 2 My first Experience with violence!

3 My first Experience of Separation And Abandonment...

Screaming for attention... 4 My first Experience of Screaming for attention...

I am so confined in this body! 5 I can‘t express it – no one understands me! I have no language yet!

No – My body is my vehicle... So... Am i my body? 6 No – My body is my vehicle...

No – My mind is my activity And Expression... So... Am i my mind? 7 No – My mind is my activity And Expression...

Where do i get everything from that i am? So... Where do i get everything from that i am? 8 From mum and dad...as they get it from mum and dad and as they got it from theirs... etc.

Mum and daddy gave it to me! So... Am i my name? 9 No! Mum and daddy gave it to me!

Mum and daddy gave it to me! Am i my language? 10 No! Mum and daddy gave it to me!

Mum and daddy gave it to me! then... Am i my education? 11 No! Mum and daddy gave it to me!

Mum and daddy gave it to me! Hmmm ... Am i my religion? 12 No! Mum and daddy gave it to me!

Am i my status in society? How about ... Am i my status in society? 13 No! I was born into that and... Mum and daddy gave it to me!

Mum and daddy gave it to me! Well ... Am i my skin-color? 14 No! Mum and daddy gave it to me!

So... Am i female or male? No! That‘s only my Physical and Chemical 15 No! That‘s only my Physical and Chemical Condition! ...

Condition from parental dna! Let‘s see... Am i physical features? 16 No! That is a genetic Condition from parental dna!

Mum and dad were there first! Could it be... Am i my tribe? 17 No! Mum and dad were there first!

Am i my condition because i was born in sin? Shrug... Am i my condition because i was born in sin? 18 No! Mum and dad taught me, that was the original sin!

Am i my cultural belief and behaviour system? So... Am i my cultural belief and behaviour system? 19 No! I was born into that!

If i was born into a moslem family... now... If i was born into a moslem family... 20 I would be Moslem!

If i was born into a christian family... and... If i was born into a christian family... 21 I would be Christian!

Mum and daddy showed them to me. interesting... Am i my fears? 22 No! Mum and daddy showed them to me.

Am i my behaviour in society? 23 No! Mum and daddy and society taught me that.

Mum and daddy and society were first... Am i my life experience in terms of abundance and living conditions, etc ?... 24 No! Mum and daddy and society were first...

Am i my belief system and behaviour system ?... 25 Nope! I got that from Mum and daddy and society ...

heck... Am i on this planet earth? 26 YES !!!

No!!!! So... Is anything on this planet that i experienced... 27 Created by anyone else but me? No!!!!

I was taught... 28 How to experience it...

How to create and sustain it... I was taught... 29 How to create and sustain it...

As it was always like that for generations I was taught Not to question it !!! 30 As it was always like that for generations

Because my forefathers couldn‘t either I was taught That i can Not change it !!! 31 Because my forefathers couldn‘t either

Am i thus a victim of what i was taught? 32 I must be -Because i have no other belief system 

Am i teaching the same things to my children? 33 Am i their example as mum and dad where mine ?...

So what Am i now? First my belief system – my life condition - 34 My behaviour pattern – my experiences – my paths...

I am also my Belief system... 35 Based on My choices!

But, was i all this, when i was born ?? 36 No!! I was taught all this! And that is what is called my ego!!!

So... What i believe i am now Is not my true self! 37 But only what i believe of myself !!! This is called Ego.

So... Who am i really? 38 Must be something that was there when i was born... That i cannot remember !!

It can‘t be conditional love... I know It can‘t be conditional love... 39 I was taught that !! So it must be Uncondtional Love !!!   

It can‘t be lack nor loss... I know It can‘t be lack nor loss... 40 I was taught that !! It wasn‘t so when i came here...

I know It can‘t be pain nor hurt... 41 I was taught that. I am joy !

There is something more... I know There is something more... 42 I was that !! Before i was programmed...

That something more, Must still be somewhere hidden 43 By false programming...

So... How will i find that ??? 44 How ? And Where ?

Ok Let‘s have a look ! 45 I am I am creative but Reactive...

Creativity... Serves me ! 46 Reactivity... Does not serve me!

Release myself from all reactive behaviours Knowing this... I am going to 47 Release myself from all reactive behaviours

I already know where it‘s from. I must see it!! And now... How? Hmmmm.... 48 I already know where it‘s from. I must see it!! And now... reProgram it, Myself!

I think... If i remove my programming 49 I will be able to see who i truly am again

Now... The crucial question: 50 Guess  1 ... 2 ... 3 ...

Do i love myself enough 51 To release myself From this programming?

Hmmm yes... 52 Where do i Start?

The Creator is everywhere !! All the time I know... 53 The Creator is everywhere !! All the time

so... God was there when i was born 54 In my mind as well – That is why i look so serene

I allowed myself To be programmed... And to forget Who I really am !!! 55 And to forget Who I really am !!!

I became... 56 Competitive !

I desire to be myself again... 57 But.......how ??

I forgive ... Myself !!! That i allowed myself to be programmed !! 58 That i allowed myself to be programmed !! This is my gift of release. Yes!

Freedom !!!! 59 I am me again ! I am, i am, i am!

In love, uncondtionally Rainbowtide In love, uncondtionally 60 July 2001 Copyrights reserved I am  Authors‘ web site Return