LESSON 6 THE DYNAMIC INTER-CHANGEABILITY OF RAGE AND DEPRESSION SUPPRESSED RAGE TURNED AGAINST SELF OR ROUTED INTO PARANOID AND REVENGE FANTASIES Under Construction

RAGE DEPRESSION RAGE AND DEPRESSION ARE HELD IN A VOLATILE, IMPOTENT, PRESSURE- FILLED BALANCE THAT IS ABOUT TO EXPLODE. THERE IS A FEELING OF BEING ABOUT TO EITHER BURST OR DIE. AS VALENCES IN THE ENVIRONMENT CHANGE FROM HI TO LO TO MODERATE, ONE OR THE OTHER - RAGE OR DEPRESSION - GETS THE UPPER HAND. Feeling that the source can not be attacked because the source is someone whose approval, love, regard, and support is desperately needed, the rage is suppressed. The suppressed rage does not go away, but rather leaves the person with the hurt and in addition with frustration and humiliation over being powerless to express the rage. As a result, the person turns against their own self and begins to feel the hurt was justified. At its lowest point, feeling, hurt, unloved, powerless, humiliated and disgusted with the self, depression becomes a wish that one were not alive. Depression is covering rage which is covering hurt. At the point of deepest depression there is an immobilized, smoldering rage oscillating between first being turned against the other and then against the self. DEPRESSION AND RAGE MASK A DEEP, PAINFUL HURT, AND FEAR. The rage wants to get back at the source of the hurt or fear.

CONDITIONS THAT PROVOKE RAGE IN A DEPRESSED PERSON MODERATE ELICITS SUPPRESSED SIMMERING RAGE AND DEPRESSION DEPRESSION SHOVED TO REAR TEMPORARILY EXTREMELY HIGH ELICITS RAGE EXTREMELY LOW ELICITS RAGE When the environment is very safe, the pressure of rage breaks through. When the threat is visible and intense, the balance is disrupted and rage erupts. LEVEL OF PERCEIVED THREAT RAGE DIRECTEDTOWARD OTHER RAGERAGE

FEAR OF REJECTION OR ATTACK SUPPRESSES RAGE. WHERE DOES SUPPRESSED RAGE GO? INTO FANTASIES OF BEING VIOLENTLY OR NON VIOLENTLY ATTACKED, TALKED ABOUT BEHIND ONE’S BACK, ABANDONED, OSTRACIZED, REJECTED, HUMILIATED, BEING POISONED, ONE’S PLANS BEING SABOTAGED, ETC. FOLLOWED BY FANTASIES OF RETALIATION. RAGE TOWARD SELF AND PARANOID FANTASIES ARE INTERCHANGEABLE BY WAY OF THE INTROJECTED NEGATIVE IMPLICIT OTHER. DEPRESSION RAGE SUPPRESSED AND DIRECTED TOWARD SELF WHEN DEPRESSION GETS THE UPPER HAND

DEPRESSION RAGE SUPPRESSED AND DIRECTED TOWARD SELF- SUICIDAL AS DEPRESSION IS LIFTED, THE PERSON BECOMES AWARE OF THEIR BODY AND ITS ACHES AND PAINS. PSYCHOSOMATIC SYMPTOMS DEVELOP DURING THE TRANSITION IN AND OUT OF DEPRESSION OR RAGE. SUBSTANCE ABUSE AND SELF MEDICATION INCREASES IN THE MIDST OF THE TRANSITION. AS RAGE IS SUPPRESSED, IT IS TURNED AGAINST THE SELF TO BECOME SUICIDAL. SYMPTOMS OCCURRING DURING THE TRANSITION IN AND OUT OF DEPRESSION Psychosomatic Symptoms AS RAGE IS MOVING UP FROM DEPRESSION >>the TRANSITION EXHIBITS AS RAGE IS DESCENDING INTO DEPRESSION >>the TRANSITION EXHIBITS

RAGE SUPPRESSED & DIRECTED TOWARD SELF Cold Negative Implicit Other Abusive Negative Implicit Other First step in treatment of depression, rage, paranoia, and psychosomatic symptoms is: a] TO connect TO one’s feeling toward one’s self and b] TO identify the way one projects those same feelings ONTO the world and ultimately to the origin or source [of these feelings and projections] as they were exhibited by significant others in one’s life history. Second step is identifying and objectively accepting the root cause of these feelings at the point of origin and subsequently introjected as negative implicit others. Furthermore, it is necessary to understand the invisible, pervasive influence of the negative implicit others on one’s psyche. Third step is to re-orient one’s own negative feelings toward self, others, and world back toward their root origins and sources. Fourth step is to symbolically express these negative feelings, in their full intensity, FIRST toward the ostensive, current targets and SECOND toward the root origin and source. This is called catharsis or abreaction. Fifth step is to communicate to the origins and sources, in a rational, matter of fact, manner, one’s understanding of the negative effect that the origins and sources had had upon the development of one’s personality and explain their connection to one’s current feelings and behavior. Sixth step is identify situations, occasions, and inner processes that invoke or evoke those negative feelings toward self and others and to consciously differentiate them from their origins and from the introjected negative implicit others and consciously decide that that is not the way you want to see those situations or feel and act in these situations in the future. This entails exiling the negative implicit others so that they no longer have an influence over you. The final step is to replace the old perceptions of situations and beliefs, feelings, behaviors evoked in the situation with a new set that is more in tune with the way you truly want to be. TREATMENT FOR DEPRESSION AND RAGE AND THE TRANSITION BETWEEN THEM RAGE DIRECTED TOWARD OTHER DEPRESSION

I finally feel cleansed and free and my mind feels clear, serene and creative. It was worth all I had to go through to get here. RESULT of CATHARSIS and EXILING NEGATIVE IMPLICIT OTHERS