1. Bournemouth Diana Wilson Co-founder Maternal OCD

2. In brief OCD from 8 -35 years old Mainly pure O On diagnosis 5 sessions of CBT OVER 3 month Free of OCD since Flooding and SSRI’s Permission to be kind to myself Still revisit OCD today

3. Aged 8: my mum being killed in car accident Aged 12: inappropriate sexual thoughts Aged 18: Aids and relationships Aged 23: meeting Rob Aged 27: marriage Aged 28: birth of our daughters – loved ones Aged 30: pregnant women - strangers Aged 35: past thoughts – old memories crossing with terrorising thoughts

4. Fear of harm to babies Fear of sexual abuse Fear of alcohol Fear of shaking Fear of brain damage Fear of drowning HOW DO YOU TELL YOUR GP?

5. me Fear of the enormity: 26 years Fear of disclosure and the social consequences Fear of mental health treatment & professionals Fear of the inevitability of having to confront the fears Fear of harming my babies Fear of being medicated while breastfeeding Fear of separation from child Stages and types of fear

6. Each generation has its perceptions of mental health shaped by popular media and imagery

7. WHERE DID I FEEL I BELONGED? My family My friends

8. WHERE DID I FEEL I BELONGED? My family My friends

9. HIGH FUNCTIONING SUFFERERS

10. CBT Imaginary exposure Used for all thoughts Can be practised when breastfeeding. Worked particularly well for fear of harm and fear of HIV Along with doing real exposure approx one hour imaginary exposure per day over three month period