1. The Fear Factor

2. Me My personality My English skills My Hebrew skills My memory - for my lesson, of their names Getting lost - in my lesson, in the building Not knowing children, not being known My moods, patience etc. The staff

3. The Students Bad eggs Unmotivated students One particularly bad student Too smart for me.

4. What I Don’t Know Heterogeneous classes Judging level How to change mid-stream How to deal with 40 children at once Tricks in my pocket Grammar

5. The Powers that Be Interface/Autonomy with the administration Dealing with parents Dealing with The Ministry

6. Life/Profession Hating this whole thing Not having enough time Too much work I don’t know enough - and never will

7. Deborah’s Top Ten Hints Go to Samoa 2. Abe Lincoln’s Stovepipe Hat 3. The Boy Scout Motto 4. Never Trust Ben Franklin 5. This isn’t a Carole King Song

8. 6. You’re not the only teacher in the world 7. Suck up to the Shichpool lady 8. She died 6 months ago or this will be a good one to tell at parties 9. Never plan more than you can carry 10. Enjoy yourself

9. I didn’t work this hard to make you one more cog in the wheel I did it so you would be revolutionaries. I did it so you would transform lives. I did it so you would transform your lives. I did it so you would join me in caring. I did it so your own children would experience a better level of education. I did it because I trust you to not just survive but to flourish.

10. Final Words for You You see, that’s why I really work like a dog and I worked like a dog all my life. I am not interested in the academic status of what I am doing because my problem is my own transformation. That’s the reason also why, when people say, ”Well, you thought this a few years ago and now you say something else,” my answer is [Laughter] “Well, do you think I have worked like that all those years to say the same thing and not to be changed?” This transofrmation of one’s self by one’s own knowledge is, I think, something rather close to the aesthetic experience. Why should a painter work if he is not transfomed by his own painting?